My light feels like it is very dim this evening.
I am tired.
I am grumpy.
My temper is short.
I am easily finding fault with lots of things and people around me.
This is not my best self. Not the person I want people to see.
It is real though. Real.
The light is dim.
So I have to put on my big girl drawers and realize that this is not what I am called to be. These are not the plans he has for me tonight. I am not giving him or anyone around me my best right now.
I am going to choose to stop these negative thoughts and actions right now. I am going to pray for a calm mind filled with thoughts that are pleasing unto him.
I almost have to go back to the saying "Not my circus, not my monkey's".
I can only control me and what is in my circle of control with God's guidance.
Deep breaths.
Prayer.
Repeat.
See you all tomorrow morning.
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